Selfish vs selfless

Finally I realise the difference between selfish and selfless.. A person is selfish because the love of self is greater than the love of others..To me, I wanted to practise selfless love to everyone starting with people around me.. But I did not understand that by own way of being selfless, I am actually being selfish..

Sigh! Sometimes its hard to make a decision due to a number of factors. One of it is due to a lack of understanding of the situation. Another is due to the reluctance to let go and reluctance to open up.. All these ultimately point to the whole idea of the existence of a self..protecting the precious self..

In essence, the self does not exist at all.. Its just a misconception that the self exists.. If the self belongs to me, then I should be able to control its thoughts, health etc. But I cannot..

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Again, the sky was drizzling.. Rain pelted upon her face mercilessly.. She could no longer distinguish the difference between the rain and the tears that were flowing down her cheeks..

"All I wanted to do was to avoid hurting people and in the end it ended up hurting people even more.. Why do I have to make a decision when I cannot make it? In the end, I am just selfish no difference from the man on the street!" She blurted out her thoughts to the scarecrow in the meadow fields nevermind that the scarecrow did not answer her..

A streak of lightning ran across the sky.. At that exact moment, she held up her hand and wished" I want all my unhappy memories to be erased.."

In the blink of an eye, the lightning striked against her silver bracelet triggering an electricity current to pass through her body reaching to the brain.. The timing of the wish made coincided with the lining of the stars which would allow a wish to come true. This was an opportunity that would appear once in a million years..

The wind blew through the fields and the scarecrow shook its head seeming to feel sorry for her.. She remained lying on the ground after the shock with a blissful look on her face..

Yes..Her wish had come true.. No more unhappy memories but no more happy memories either.. Everything had come to an end finally..
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