The rainbow will appear after the rain has gone..

Its been some time since i last blogged. Quite a few events had happened though.. well as usual, my style is I do not give you the entire details but the essence and the lessons I learnt from it.

I love rainbow since donkey years ago.. Rainbows always give me hope and happiness. Perhaps it has something to do with watching animations where rainbows are always depicted in a positive light..

At the end of the rainbow, there is a pot of gold.. Whenever I told my friends this, they will always laugh at me... Well, laugh as you wish, my pot of gold is not the literal pot of gold..


To me, the pot of gold simply signify something wonderful, something joyous..

Rainbows always appear the rain is gone.. Its like after the sadness is gone, the light of hope will appear encouraging us to perserve in whatever we do..

For a long time, my buddy has been unhappy and depressed.. When he finally began to pick up his life and viewed things in an optimistic manner, I was more than happy for him.. All along, I had felt helpless because of the lack of ability to help him. The only thing I can do was to stand by him and believe in him that one day, things will be better for him.. There were times when I felt like shaking him to wake him up.. But at the same time, I knew he will see the light by himself one day...

The wait has been long but I'm glad that I did not give up on him.. He has never given up on me, likewise I will do the same for him.. This is my pot of gold..

Another friend that I had some affinity with was also going through a depressed period.. During this period, he almost cut off contact with me and others.. It was an uneasy period for me because I do not know if the friendship I established with him will last through this period..

I waited and waited.. sometimes I made the initative to talk to him, there were responses but rather dead responses.. Eventually, I decided to just give him time to sort things out.. I believe in him.. I believe that our friendship will be able to last through because of what he wrote and what he said as assurance..

One fine day... he took the initative to talk to me.. things finally started to resume to normal.. Its really a great feeling.. I'm thankful that I did not abandon him then..

From these two great guys, I learnt something. Sometimes standing by and just believing in them is what is needed.. The helplessness that I feel was probably far lesser that what was being felt by them.. They have been my teachers for they have taught me something precious..

They are my pot of gold... The rainbow will appear after the rain has gone...

Negative Thoughts Shoo..

Have you ever wondered how easily we get sensations and perceptions just throught our five senses without even any understanding of what the object is?

Well.. I do.. Negative thoughts can just arise as and when they like..I know they are coming yet I do not have the will to control them yet..

Glanced upon a photo of a few friends and was overwhelmed by the negative thoughts that arose.. Sigh.. It amazes me because these friends used to be close with me but not anymore..

People change, thats why we drifted apart.. I have already moved forward, why are you still stuck in the JC years? Did you not realise that your behaviour irks me that much to the extent I'll rather skip the gathering than hearing you whine?

Certain friendships just cannot seem to stay the way it is.. I played my part once and you did not respond..There is a limit to even my belief of sustaining a friendship.. If basic courtesy of returning phone calls and sms when friends are looking for cannot be done, what more is there to be said?

I'm not bitter or emotional.. just saying it as a matter of fact.. or maybe I'm disappointed?

Other friends are those that I'm unable to trust them or share personal things with them.. Though I am sociable and warm but deep down it takes eons for me to open my treasure box.. When the box is opened, it is seldom shut.. It is shut only when the trust is misplaced..

Well enough about myself.. I should practise metta meditation more to transform those negative thoughts into positive thoughts...

May those people who hurt me in one way or another be well and happy..