Treasure life and live it fully!

Treasure Life & Live It Fully!

How would you feel if you already in advance that your loved one will depart from this life before you?

Do you feel the fear, the occasional sadness and the helplessness?

I do... Perhaps that's why I have never liked the idea of having the futures known...

Precisely because of this reason, I try my best to given advice on how best not to take unnecessary risks and to treasure life to the fullest...

As my age increases, I have realised that it is better to start taking care of our health in our 20s. That's why I apply sunblock on my face daily and put on shades when the sun is glaring...

The sun is the most helpful and yet the most harmful thing..
refer to the below links for more information on this...

http://www.nsc.org/ehc/sunsafe.htm
http://library.thinkquest.org/15215/Foe/damaging_health.html

By the time you have finished reading all this, the one keyword that keeps flashing by is " prevention is better than cure".

I find it extremely uncomfortable when I see people exposing to the scorching sun doing sports... The risk of getting damaged skin and other related effects are high... You may not believe me because you do not see the effects as of now... But by the time you see the effects, it will be too late to save it...

I am neither controlling and preventing you from doing what you will like to do... But seeing you expose yourself to such risks and not advising you, I really do not think that's my style...

However, I am also aware that the truth hurts... and often people may not like it...
I won't repeat myself, my point has been made and I closed my case...

Whatever decision or preventions or precautions that you ultimately choose, it is entirely to your health benefit not mine or anyone else...

If you love your life, treasure it and live it to the fullest!

I love you dear dear...

Looking Into The Future

Almost a year ago, a spiritual mentor told my good friends and I what lies in the future for us inclusive of everything from career, love to family...

I embarked on my new career with her advice and now I am not regretting it..
Neither do I regret getting together with my dear dear...

Dear dear, even if you were to leave a few years earlier before me, those decades of memories will be enough for me to keep me company throughout till my very last breath...

We have grown within a year and the bond between us has grown stronger and tighter with each passing day... The fights that we have just allowed us to understand each other deeper even though tears are shed...

It is such good fortune of mine and yours to be able to do 13 koras together in Nepal... It is even rarer to be able to go on meditation retreat with you to cultivate along this spiritual path...

Perhaps this is why the fortune teller says my good life has already started... It is my blessing to have found you, let me treasure every single day, every minute, every second with you around...

I love you dear dear...

My Dream Of The Death Of A Loved One

My Dream Of The Death Of A Loved One

I had a dream, or rather a nightmare... of my loved one leaving me and returning back in the form of a ghost to accompany me just for a day... It was incredibly real with all my friends around me and even that I myself knew that it was real... In the dream, I tried to convince myself that everything was unreal and soon things will be well...

But no matter how much time passed, everything still remains as it was... No one was able to feel my pain, my broken heart, my loss of a loved one... When the scenario changed to that of a funeral, I saw right before my eyes the photo and the coffin of my love... Refusing to believe my eyes, I gathered all my courage to look into the coffin...

Till now, I can never forget the kind of pain, loss and heartbroke feeling... It felt like someone hitting me on the head and at the same time, a knife stabbing through my heart... I woke up in shock, traumatized and shaking with sweat and tears...

I couldn't confirm it was a dream or it was real... The only thing I did was to msg my dear to ensure that he was well and alive in the wee hours of 2am... Thankfully, everything was just a dream...

The impact of the dream was huge... it affected me for a few weeks and even till today, I can still feel the pain whenever I see something similar to my dream...

And then finally it hit me... This is how it will feel like if I will to lose my loved one..
Parents have been with us for at least 2 decades and we all know deep in our heart that they will leave earlier than us...

But not our loved ones, our partners ... They are supposed to be with us, accompany us throughout...
What will happen if your life partner just suddenly depart from this world after spending a decade with you?

I guess that's why depression can set in, illness can occur... because the emotional pain is too much to bear for anyone... I had a feel of what's it like in my dream... Mind you, it's just a dream and even though I still feel it now and then, it's probably just 10% of the real thing...

There is no way to avoid death... The only method is to accept that this is a fact that will happen to everyone... Every single day, someone's loved one dies.. Imagine the pain that they go through...

Treasure every single moment with your loved one and do not take it for granted... You never know when it will end... Maybe 10 yrs, 1 yr, 1 month, 1 day or even 1 second...

I love you my dear and will treasure you as much as possible... Thanks for everything, you are the best thing that can ever happen to me... I love you...

Superficial world

Superficial World

It's been really a long long time since i last blogged. In the past 1 yr since I have graduated, I have experienced 3 different jobs in different areas...

What strikes me was the arts industry.. It is a world of superficial emotions, a place where you do not know if the face is a face or a mask... The only way for you to judge is through your instincts and experiences..

No wonder I find it hard to stay there, because it is so fake.. I realize to the boss, I have market value because I have connections and potential sponsors... Of course there are that rare group of sincere hearts in the arts area in order to survive long and good...

I learned who my true friends are and what the real world is due to the superficial world... Because of all this, I began to appreciate my current working place a lot more than ever, cherishing every single second of it...

It's ok really, I have moved on to better and bigger things... =)

I have changed...

Title: I have changed...

Things, people can change within 1 second, needless to say within months...

I always feel that it's interesting to 'document' changes of myself once in a while because it can be unnoticeable if you do a check daily... but if the time line is stretched to months, then it's another story...

I have become more soft, more pampered, more dependent and more protected in the past few months... Controlling emotions which used to be easier for me have become really harder nowadays..

The time allocated to others have also decreased significantly as compared to the past... This is not a good nor a bad thing because circumstances change.. further more everyone is a working adult now instead of a student...

Perhaps it's irony... but I have also grown tougher, more street savvy, more alert in another way... Alarm bells will sound instantly if the situation is 'weird' in any sense..

But sometimes because of the above listed, I tend to take things for granted... thinking that it will always be there, it will always happen the way I want it to be...

A lot of friends I know feel this too.. Taking things for granted is something that we all know that we should avoid... but it's hard to do so...

Only when incidents happen, then we come to regret of it... It's not my style to have regrets because that kind of feeling is damn sucky, yucky... I do not want to be in that kind of situation where I am being taken for granted or I take people for granted...

Try as I may sometimes the control is beyond me... This is life~

Confused

Title: Confused

I am really getting confused.. a bunch of thoughts just randomly flying over and around my head...

Why do I feel like we are getting blamed for something that we haven't actually had the chance to do it a second time?

Why do I feel like it is a big conspiracy all along? Some sort of betrayal going on?

I feel like shit now.. damn lousy...

Only one event and where is the god damn pattern.. there isn't any...
Is it because I just did not want it enough?

Or is it because the motivation ain't there?
I seriously don't have the answer now...

And I don't know when I will have the answer...
Damn confused now...

But I cannot sleep because I have all these questions floating around in my head..
Reluctant to be a leader...

Fingers pointing at me and I cannot help but feel helpless...
I do not feel disappointed but it doesn't mean I don't feel anything..

geez... emotions are such an hassle.. they come and they go as and when they like... so tough to deal with emotions..

Changi Village

Title: Changi Village

Changi Village is really nice and ideal place to nua.. but it is sooo far from my place.. but worth a go if you need a place that has beach, clean air, kampong feel and good food..

It is a special place for me now.. the sea breeze blowing across my face..spending it with someone special and close to my heart..

Occasionally, you see people fishing for fish, crabs.. Huge ships, speedboats cruising across the sea..
The flock of pigeons who attempt to befriend you for the sake of food..

Such a nice place, yet it remains pristine and free from commercialisation.. But how long will it last?

I hope it stays this way at least for my generation.. for us to unwind and nua.. without any disturbances nor noise..

Shooting Stars

Title: Shooting Stars

I have seen countless times of shooting stars.. there are some memorable ones especially in Singapore with loved ones..

Let me attempt to list down those times I saw shooting stars across the sky both in Singapore and overseas..

Singapore
1. I was in a restaurant high on top of hotel eating Dim Sum when I saw a shooting star fell down.. No one at the table saw it except me..

2. At the chalet at east coast for OAC gathering in JC days, shooting star just flew across the sky.. My friends thought that must be a plane flying past but I am dead sure it's a shooting star..

3. I was at east coast park near the changi side with Charles talking.. Saw this green light shoot across and mistook it as light stick until Charles yelled that its a star.. Pretty hilarious, heard its quite rare one to catch a green star!

4. Caught it at MY NEIGBOURHOOD PARK with my special someone.. Cannot believe my eyes when I saw it went down in the midst of the HDB blocks.. seem so unreal to catch it right smack near my place.. lol

Overseas
5. Was resting at a makeshift place for trekking to Jerkang waterfall next day when I saw 2 shooting stars at one shot.. Very satisfying when my friend did not see both at all..

6. Caught it at base camp at Kota Tinggi Waterfall when about to sleep facin the sky.. saw a shooting star that reverse its direction before coming down.. totally weird and funny.. me and cindy laughed until wanna die..

7. This time, its at Stong Waterfall base camp.. the star jus went down after we were waiting to see one for a long long time.. nothing spectacular..lol

8. At Nepal guest house rooftop.. was the only one who saw the shooting star flew past.. simply amazing in the cold weather with positive energy all around!

I guessed as compared to my peers, my frequencies of seeing shooting stars can be considered quite alot.. Perhaps I am just really lucky in so many times..

Wondered if shooting stars really grant wishes? If they do, then I will remember what wish to make for Charles the next time.. I have afterall made enough wishes in Nepal.. It's time to share with others.. =)