Rapids Sweeping Me Off

Title: Rapids Sweeping Me Off

Going away for a trip can indeed take things away from the mind. Sometimes it allows you to see things clearer having another perspective.. Sometimes it just make things more complicated then ever.

I had an enjoyable trip to KL with Fang, Xin and ZY. Very memorable on the laughter, the maps, the food, the cabbies and also the numerous b'dae celebrations for ZY.. It is extremely fun to go for short trips with close friends to eat and shop..

Rapids always flow at fast speeds sweeping things along the way without hesitation.. When I went on this KL trip, rapids attempted to sweep me off.. I simply did not have sufficient reaction time to hesitate nor think it through..

Rapids are nice, in fact too nice.. They touched me deeply yet I hesitated.. Still trying to rationalise it out.. Should I just flow with the rapids or should I stand steadfast in the rapids?

Perhaps when I am tired of standing, I will sit down and flow along with it? Or perhaps when when I am beyond words of expression, I will flow with it..

Underpaid and overworked

Title: Underpaid and Overworked

I wonder why I am having 2nd thoughts on leaving the workplace.. Is it because of the enironment, the colleagues or the job nature of the work?

The big boss is nice no doubt but a very different working style compared to my ex-boss. Both are perfectionists but the big boss one is of an even higher level..

Everything I do under him always seem not right..For once, I am beginning to wonder if my work performance has dropped or that his standards are just too high for me to reach..

Suddenly the phrase"underpaid and overworked" came across my mind.. I am basically a multi tasker, had to do almost everything since its effectively a one woman team.. Now I even have to double up as admin: banking in cheques - opening letter boxes because the person in charge is on leave..

I do alot of things without complains because I believe that complains cannot solve problems. Seriously, even if I love my job big time, the pay is too little to cover..

More pay, more benefits please.. Thank You!

Wounded by words

Title: Wounded By Words"

I never felt so hurt, disappointed and pissed by words before. Especially when it comes from someone I thought of as a close friend..

The original intention was to lighten the atmosphere by joking with him yet he took it as trying to make him feel lousy and make myself look better in front of others.. ASSHOLE..

Worst, I was even accused of mixing personal affairs and work matters.. In the 3 years that you knew me, when did I ever cross my line? Do you think you are the only person who cares?

Your intention of taking on the additional role/ workload was to contribute better to the community large. Yet if it turns out that the stress you accumulated resulted to hurting people around you with words, then forget it..

ITS NOT DOING YOURSELF NOR OTHERS GOOD.

I apologise for the sake of apologising because you think I should.. NOT because I think I was in the wrong..

Now, I remember and I will stay away.. For all the times that you hurt me with your words and actions.. there forms a crack in the friendship and in my heart..

I will shun away from you.. Never close again..