My unpursued dreams..

Title: My Unpursued Dreams

Realised that my title hasn't been appearing in my blog...so decided to manually add in myself..

Met Seck, the artist once again.. Each time I interact with her, she never fails to inspire me through the conversation.. She has this aura around her that is rather amazing to me..

Through the conversation, I realised she teaches drawing at Laselle.. Drawing is something that I always wanted to pursue but lack the courage to do so.. I guessed she felt my hesitation, she told me" talented people are talented because of the passion and the hardwork behind.. Drawing is about staying in the moment.. People tend to draw based on the past or the future but no, its the moment that is significant..You have eyes, hands and brain, you can draw too.."

All along, there is this voice that said drawing is for the talented ones. It does not help that I have an older cousin who is inclined to drawing and doing handicraft. There is this sense of inferiority I felt each time I thought of picking up sketching..

When Seck shared her experience of drawing and teaching drawing, there is this spark in her eyes. Its like her passion, her life, she glows when she talked about it..Amazing.. I promised myself I have to find time to learn sketching from Seck, to pursue my dreams in drawing..

Apart from drawing, there is always dancing.. I kinda regretted not continuing it then but really glad that I finally continue now.. It suprises me that things that I learned then are still not forgotten despite its a difference form of dance now..

One by one, I will pursued my dreams.. If back then, I knew the fees in Lasalle, NAFA were cheaper than NUS and I had the courage to do the unconventional.. I would have gone there to pursue my studies..

Well, I am confident that I will be able to slowly learn the things that I wanted to do.. My unpursued dreams will be fulfilled..

Sabrinaism..

This is a new word that has been coined to describe actions that are uniquely associated with me..

Not sure if I should feel honoured or otherwise.. But well my goofy hilarious actions are unintentional.. As what Charles said, its in my blood..

No matter how much I change, its never gonna be gone.. I just have to love the way I am..

Another issue.. there is this cute Korean- American guy that caught my eyes during open house. In my entire 4 years in university life, there hasn't been any guy that I am smitten with.. But him, yes, lol..

Sometimes i am scared to face up to my own feelings. Because I am afraid of handling them, afraid of hurting people, hurting others. Especially when I know that the element of uncertainty is huge, I will choose to escape.. I am a professional in this area..

Be brave.. Love myself..

Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out. When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life. Your flirting style: Laid back Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm What you bring to relationships: Balance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Basic Courtesy please..

For someone who has busy friends and who is always busy, I never believed in flying people kites nor standing them up.. As much as possible, I try to inform in advance if I am going to be late or unable to make it such that my friends can make other plans too..

I believe this is the basic courtesy that everyone should try to practise.. Well someone stood me up for movie but thankfully the ticket wasn't paid by me.. To be practical, I did not gain or lose anything..

Honestly, it wasn't a fantastic feeling. Plus the movie wasn't entertaining.. But it gave me a new experience for it was the 1st time I watched a movie alone..Geez.. Initially, I was really pissed but well I rationalised and complained about it hehe.. So pretty much got over the emotional stage lol

Kudos to Cindy who was there to meet me and hear my complains and hanged until I was ready to go home.. all this despite her the other half was with her.. Hugs Cindy!! The other one was Charles, my bro..Yah, I know you still cannot get used to the title of Bro.. Thanks for being the hotline as always.. Really appreciate alot.. Hugs Charles!!

Well, I learnt.. Learnt how the system works, how it feels like to be the person being flied the kite.. At least I know the word of basic courtesy..

Confessions of someone..

I am someone who is a no one.. yet I too have secrets, have confessions to make..

I yearn to break out of the constraints of the society, dashing forward towards the desires..

Yet its not possible..

Because of what I believe , professionalism in whatever I do.. Work first and personal feelings aside..

How can I not compromise a relationship and maintain professionalism still?

Not possible.. because such an image has been formed, I have to mould it, break free of it..

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I am sure this kind of monologue would have appeared in your mind. I am just voicing the thoughts of people I heard..

Have the courage to break free of constraints. Do not fear change for change is the only stable element in life..